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Chapter Eight
Liz POV
It’s been a month since Tess’s house and we go every week. I’ve come to love this place and the people in it. In this town everyone knows each other, and I like the sense of security. I still get nightmares but even those are starting to fade. I also started working at the crashdown with Maria, Tess, and even Isabel got a job there. I haven’t told anyone but Isabel yet. I’m going too but I need to wait for the right time. I don’t want to ruin what I have here. Isabel says they’ll understand but I don’t know. What’s strange is that back home every time a guy would come near me I would seriously freak. I mean I went Jack Nicholson in As Good as It Gets. “Get off me, don’t touch me.” Then I come hear and I feel totally at ease. Michael, Alex, and Kyle have become like my brothers and Max well when I don’t have nightmares I dream about him. Even though things are great I have a feeling the shit is gonna hit the fan soon.
Why do you ask that? Well on one of our outing at Tess’s house we all fell asleep. Yes I did wake up screaming. Not only was I screaming but I was screaming “Please don’t hurt me!” Isabel and I covered it up saying it was just a random nightmare but I know they don’t believe me. How else do I know everything gonna be out in the open soon. Max knows something is up. How does know that? Our bedrooms are across from each other. During one particularly bad night I woke up and looked across the way. Well Max was up watching me. He knows something happened to me. Of course the whole me breaking down in his arms thing last month only helped fuel his suspicions. So anyway I know this is going to blow up at any moment. But hey let’s not ruin the moment. I mean let’s enjoy this bit of normalcy for as long as we got it. Comprende?
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Max POV.
We are at the park today. Tess decided we need some fresh air. I can tell she wants to ask us something. I know her. I also know what it’s about. Liz. We all know something’s wrong. She wakes up every night screaming. I tried to talk to Isabel, but she just played it off. That tells me Liz confided in her. Whatever it is I’ll be there for her. We hang out all the time and I know I’m falling for her. She’s smart, funny, and just worms her way into her heart. In a week she managed to break Stonewall Guerin. He loves her like a sister, and I see how he gets protective of her.
It’s getting dark out and I notice Liz is getting antsy. She hates the dark. When I asked her why, all she said was that bad things happen in the dark.
Tess clears her throat and I know what’s about to happen.
“Liz, are you okay?” I see Liz jump at the question. She laughs nervously. “Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?”
“We know something’s wrong. The nightmares that you get, and the way you hate the dark. What happened to you?” Tess’s blue eyes are shining with concern. I know she cares but she’s going to make things worse.
“Tess that was one dream, and so what I’m afraid of the dark. You’re afraid of clowns.”
“No it isn’t one dream. Max told me about how you wake up every night screaming so you can’t pretend it’s nothing.” She shoots me a glare and oh crap I’m in deep shit now.
“I don’t need to hear this. I said nothing is wrong so nothing is wrong! I’m leaving.” She gets up and starts to run. I run after her. She shouldn’t be alone at night.”
“Liz, wait.” I grab her arm to stop her.
“Don’t touch me.” She’s crying now and I hate it when she cries.
“Liz, I’m sorry. What happened? Why are you so upset?” She screams in frustration.
“Max I just don’t need this shit right now.” Shes trying to play it off but I’m not letting her of the hook that easy.
“No this is something else. You’ve been hiding something since you got here. What is it? What happened to you?”
“I don’t think that’s any of your business.” She screams at me. I’m upset so I yell back at her now.
“Yes it is. I care about you damn it, and whatever it is it’s eating you up inside. Why won’t you let us in? Why won’t you be honest with us?”
“You want honesty! I’ll give you honesty! You want to know why I wake up screaming every night. Why I’m so scared of the dark? Hell why we even moved here in this first place? I was raped Max back where I lived! Some stranger grabbed me, violated me and beat the crap out of me! Then he left me for dead in an alley. There is your honesty Max.” I’m blown away by her words and I take a step back from her.
Liz POV
I see him step back and my walls go up around me again. He can’t even look at me.
“Fine walk away. Just like everyone else did. You find out she’s used good and want nothing to do with her. I get it Max.” I turn around to find everyone standing there. Judging by the looks on their faces they all heard. I can’t breathe I need to get out of here. I run to my car and I’m not surprised when Isabel is right behind me. She’s crying too.
“Isabel go back.” I turn my back and she turns me around.
“I don’t think so. You need me and there is no way I am leaving you alone.” She takes the key and gets in the drivers seat. I guess I’m riding shot gun. I get in and once the door is closed I break down. I should be stronger then this. People have abandoned me before but I didn’t care I just felt numb. I want to go back to that. I can’t care. Then why was it when Max stepped back did I feel my heart break? Well that’s simple because I managed to fall for him. God I’m so stupid.
Max POV
I can’t move. Someone hurt her. Someone took advantage of her. She thinks I don’t care. I’m being dragged to a bench. I look up to see Tess. Tears are falling down her cheeks.
“This is all my fault. I pushed her. I should have left her alone.” She manages to cry out.
“This can’t be happening. Not Liz. She shouldn’t have to go through this. She thinks we don’t care.” I choke out.
“Why the hell would she think that? I consider her family.” Michael tells us.
“Tess, lets go find them. We need to show her how much we love her.” Maria and Tess run off.
“She thinks I don’t care.” I whisper. I can’t stand to think that someone touched her.
Max you just need to talk to her.” Kyle says. His face is white and Alex is pacing.
“Not tonight. Let the girls take care of her. Tomorrow first thing go to her.” Alex leads me to the car and drives us all home. I need her to know shes not alone. Tomorrow first thing like Alex said I’ll be there. I’m going to make her see how much I love her and would never abandon her.
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Chapter Nine
I’m lying on my bed as Isabel makes us tea. I want to sleep, and try and forget what happened. I know I won’t fall asleep and I’m going to have to deal with my problems. Max’s reaction keeps playing over in my mind. Over and over. Why do I care so much? He’s just a guy. No he isn’t just a guy. In the past month he’s become a lifeline for me. Whenever I need a break from my thoughts he was always there. The basketball court was our place where we just sat and talked. He even taught me how to play.
**Flashback**
“Yes did you see that Max? I got it in!” I don’t believe it the ass is laughing at me.
“Yea Liz you’re a regular Michael Jordon.” I stick my tongue out at him and he runs over to me and picks me up.
“Max put me down!” I scream as he starts to spin me around. He starts to run to the lake right by the park. What is he doing?
“What are you doing?” He won’t answer me, he just keeps running and before I know it I’m in the water. “Max I am going to kill you. I am going to make you suffer a painful death for that.” Wow I am failing very miserably at sounding mad. Well it was hot out!
“Please like you weren’t about to die of heat.” We end up laughing and just splashing each other for the rest of the day.
**End Flashback**
My thoughts of Max are broken when Tess and Maria storm into my room. Isabel follows after them. I think they just took two years off my life. That is how much they scared me. Which just proves the point that thinking about Max is bad. I need to stop it. Wait what am I doing I’m rambling now about him. Focus Liz!
“Holy crap, are you trying to give me a heart attack?” I know bad attempt at humor but hey a girls gotta try right? I realize they’re crying and I realize I am too. We all just stand there crying. Can you say pity party for four? *SMACK* Tess just hit me!
“You just hit me!” I say still crying.
“Yes I did” She’s still crying too.
“Why?” I have a feeling I’m about to make a breakthrough.
“Because you thought that just because that happened you thought we wouldn’t be there for you. Are you crazy? All of us are a family and we are gonna be there. Through everything and I mean everything. How could you not know that? What the hell is wrong with you?” She’s yelling now and I understand why, because when you lose control you need to feel like you’re in control. So you yell and scream anything to make you feel powerful. Her words rip into me and I realize she’s right. I shouldn’t be afraid anymore.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me Tess. I don’t know and I’m so scared of trusting people and letting them in. After that night I closed my heart and didn’t let anyone in until Isabel. I’ve come to realize that I hate being so closed off. I want to change but I don’t know how.” I feel myself fall to the ground. I feel all of my friends wrap their arms around me and hold me as I cry.
“We’ll help you change Liz. That’s what friends are for.” Maria speaks up for the first time and I know they will. I’m going to be okay.
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All the guys except Max walk in and sit in my section. I walk over to their booth. They all turn to me and I feel my heart start to beat a little faster.
“Hey guys.” I force a smile on my face as I walk over to them.
“Hey, Liz. How ya doing?” Michael asks and pats the seat next to him telling me to sit down. So I do only because I would like to know what they think about this.
“Liz about last night.” Michael starts to talk and I can only pray that it goes as well as it went with the girls. “Listen Liz we all think of you as family, and if we could we would hunt the bastard who hurt you. When I was little, my foster dad would beat me. So I know how it feels not to be able to trust anyone. You should also know that I am going to be your shadow from now on because I watch out for my family no matter what.”
I laugh freely and each of the guys say how they second what Michael says. I get up to go back to work when Kyle grabs my arm.
“Liz I know you think Max didn’t care but he did. He was just so blown away from what you told him. That guy is so in love with you he couldn’t bare the thought of you hurt.”
Max loves me. No he can’t love me. How could he. I’m not special. I’m a messed up girl who can’t get over her fears. Do I love him? If I answer it honestly yes I do. I’m not good for him but yes I love him. I’m so distracted right now. I can’t work today. I go find my mom and tell her I don’t feel well and she lets me go home.
When I get home all I want to do is collapse and go to sleep. I go to my room only to find a surprise when I get there.
“Max.” He jumps off my bed and pulls me into his arms. I melt into his embrace and I can’t help but think that I feel safest when I’m with him.
“Liz I know what it looked like last night but I would never abandon you. In the short time I’ve known you you’ve become such a huge part of my life. You’re everything to me.” I don’t like the person I am now I have to change.
“I know and I’m sorry I reacted that way. I just been too afraid to let go of my fear and let you in so I freaked. I can’t lose you Max if I did I don’t know what I would do.” Well how attractive me sobbing into his neck.
“You won’t lose me Liz. I love you and nothing you say could take me away from you.” I jump back at his words. Did he say I love you? No he can’t love me. He does though and my heart skips a beat at that realization.
“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that.” He starts to back away.
“Yes you should.” He laughs a little at my blunt tone. This is the moment where Liz Parker is going to open her heart. “I love you too.” His lips connect to mine in about a second and I wrap my arms around his neck inviting him closer. This is the best feeling in the world.
A/N I'm going to be away for two weeks so don't expect an update until the early september but i promise while I'm away I'll write alot so I'll have some new parts ready to be posted!
Chapter Nine
I’m lying on my bed as Isabel makes us tea. I want to sleep, and try and forget what happened. I know I won’t fall asleep and I’m going to have to deal with my problems. Max’s reaction keeps playing over in my mind. Over and over. Why do I care so much? He’s just a guy. No he isn’t just a guy. In the past month he’s become a lifeline for me. Whenever I need a break from my thoughts he was always there. The basketball court was our place where we just sat and talked. He even taught me how to play.
**Flashback**
“Yes did you see that Max? I got it in!” I don’t believe it the ass is laughing at me.
“Yea Liz you’re a regular Michael Jordon.” I stick my tongue out at him and he runs over to me and picks me up.
“Max put me down!” I scream as he starts to spin me around. He starts to run to the lake right by the park. What is he doing?
“What are you doing?” He won’t answer me, he just keeps running and before I know it I’m in the water. “Max I am going to kill you. I am going to make you suffer a painful death for that.” Wow I am failing very miserably at sounding mad. Well it was hot out!
“Please like you weren’t about to die of heat.” We end up laughing and just splashing each other for the rest of the day.
**End Flashback**
My thoughts of Max are broken when Tess and Maria storm into my room. Isabel follows after them. I think they just took two years off my life. That is how much they scared me. Which just proves the point that thinking about Max is bad. I need to stop it. Wait what am I doing I’m rambling now about him. Focus Liz!
“Holy crap, are you trying to give me a heart attack?” I know bad attempt at humor but hey a girls gotta try right? I realize they’re crying and I realize I am too. We all just stand there crying. Can you say pity party for four? *SMACK* Tess just hit me!
“You just hit me!” I say still crying.
“Yes I did” She’s still crying too.
“Why?” I have a feeling I’m about to make a breakthrough.
“Because you thought that just because that happened you thought we wouldn’t be there for you. Are you crazy? All of us are a family and we are gonna be there. Through everything and I mean everything. How could you not know that? What the hell is wrong with you?” She’s yelling now and I understand why, because when you lose control you need to feel like you’re in control. So you yell and scream anything to make you feel powerful. Her words rip into me and I realize she’s right. I shouldn’t be afraid anymore.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me Tess. I don’t know and I’m so scared of trusting people and letting them in. After that night I closed my heart and didn’t let anyone in until Isabel. I’ve come to realize that I hate being so closed off. I want to change but I don’t know how.” I feel myself fall to the ground. I feel all of my friends wrap their arms around me and hold me as I cry.
“We’ll help you change Liz. That’s what friends are for.” Maria speaks up for the first time and I know they will. I’m going to be okay.
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All the guys except Max walk in and sit in my section. I walk over to their booth. They all turn to me and I feel my heart start to beat a little faster.
“Hey guys.” I force a smile on my face as I walk over to them.
“Hey, Liz. How ya doing?” Michael asks and pats the seat next to him telling me to sit down. So I do only because I would like to know what they think about this.
“Liz about last night.” Michael starts to talk and I can only pray that it goes as well as it went with the girls. “Listen Liz we all think of you as family, and if we could we would hunt the bastard who hurt you. When I was little, my foster dad would beat me. So I know how it feels not to be able to trust anyone. You should also know that I am going to be your shadow from now on because I watch out for my family no matter what.”
I laugh freely and each of the guys say how they second what Michael says. I get up to go back to work when Kyle grabs my arm.
“Liz I know you think Max didn’t care but he did. He was just so blown away from what you told him. That guy is so in love with you he couldn’t bare the thought of you hurt.”
Max loves me. No he can’t love me. How could he. I’m not special. I’m a messed up girl who can’t get over her fears. Do I love him? If I answer it honestly yes I do. I’m not good for him but yes I love him. I’m so distracted right now. I can’t work today. I go find my mom and tell her I don’t feel well and she lets me go home.
When I get home all I want to do is collapse and go to sleep. I go to my room only to find a surprise when I get there.
“Max.” He jumps off my bed and pulls me into his arms. I melt into his embrace and I can’t help but think that I feel safest when I’m with him.
“Liz I know what it looked like last night but I would never abandon you. In the short time I’ve known you you’ve become such a huge part of my life. You’re everything to me.” I don’t like the person I am now I have to change.
“I know and I’m sorry I reacted that way. I just been too afraid to let go of my fear and let you in so I freaked. I can’t lose you Max if I did I don’t know what I would do.” Well how attractive me sobbing into his neck.
“You won’t lose me Liz. I love you and nothing you say could take me away from you.” I jump back at his words. Did he say I love you? No he can’t love me. He does though and my heart skips a beat at that realization.
“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that.” He starts to back away.
“Yes you should.” He laughs a little at my blunt tone. This is the moment where Liz Parker is going to open her heart. “I love you too.” His lips connect to mine in about a second and I wrap my arms around his neck inviting him closer. This is the best feeling in the world.
A/N I'm going to be away for two weeks so don't expect an update until the early september but i promise while I'm away I'll write alot so I'll have some new parts ready to be posted!
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Hey you guys! I'm finally back with a new part. I'm sorry I haven't updated in so long. My dad had surgery and i started school so it's been crazy. But I'm back so hope you all enjoy the next part!!!
Chapter 10
I’d like to say that everything has been smooth sailing for Max and I. But it isn’t. I’m still scared and I’m starting to push him away. Why am I scared you ask? Call it a woman’s intuition but lately I know something big is going to happen. Something is coming that will affect all of us. Don’t think I’ve been hiding in my room all the time. I’m not. I’m taking chances and putting myself out there. Yet in the back of my mind I know that something isn’t right. I Talked to Izzie about this. She thinks if I’m still scared I should take self-defense classes.
“That’s a good idea. But I really don’t want to go alone.” I told her.
“Well you won’t have to because I’m going with you.” Izzie really Is the greatest friend a girl could have.
“Going where?” Tess and Maria walk into the room. I smile at Izzie. I know she’s wondering if she can mention it. I’ve come to realize that you can’t hide anything from these two. You wanna know why? Well it’s simple, because when they want to know something they can be mental terrorists. I’m serious. When Kyle had been planning to take Tess out for a surprise he enlisted me as an accomplice. Well Tess figured I knew something and she jedi-mind tricked me. That girl is better then Yoda.
“Isabel and I are going to take self defense lessons.” I try and make it sound as if I don’t really care about it one way or the other.
“Not without us you’re not.” Maria and Tess exclaimed.
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So here we are, all ready to take some names and kick some ass. We decided to do a private lesson so we didn’t have to be around people we didn’t know. Our teacher walks in and Tess and I start to laugh. He is a mix between The Rock and Vin Diesel, just what you would expect for a self defense coach.
“Ladies can we get started now.” He said. We all shut up and began to listen.
“The key to not being a victim is not acting like one. If you think you are weak then you are weak. You become the perfect target” He points at me and I go up to join him. “You’re the one that was attacked weren’t you?” I nod and I wonder how he knew.
“Ok ready, hit me.” I hit him as hard as I can. “You hit like a little weak defenseless girl.” He begins to push me and I feel the same fear I had that night creep up on me. I vaguely here him tell the other to get out. He pushes me against the wall but this time I don’t act like a worthless baby. I kick and break myself from his grip.
“Good now picture everything that’s scared you and hurt you and harness that fear. You control it, don’t let control you. Fear’s good it keeps you on your toes. It separates the weak from the strong.”
This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise to depart just promise one thing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I’m in that dark alley and I’m pushed against the wall. I won’t be weak I won’t be hurt or scared anymore. I punch him across the face.
This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise you my heart just promise to sing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I’m back home and all my friends are treating me like I’m in quarantine. I feel myself begin to lose control and I knee him, and use my entire self to bring him down.I won’t be a victim. I can’t be a victim.
This is what I thought,
I thought you need me,
This is what I thought so think me naïve,
I promise you a heart you'd promise to keep,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I come back down and I’m on the floor crying. The instructor is bruised and bloody, and I’m not sure if I did that.
“Well I wouldn’t want to be in an alley with you.” He jokes. I realize that if I could beat a marine up I can handle anything. Just like that my fear disappears.
Chapter 10
I’d like to say that everything has been smooth sailing for Max and I. But it isn’t. I’m still scared and I’m starting to push him away. Why am I scared you ask? Call it a woman’s intuition but lately I know something big is going to happen. Something is coming that will affect all of us. Don’t think I’ve been hiding in my room all the time. I’m not. I’m taking chances and putting myself out there. Yet in the back of my mind I know that something isn’t right. I Talked to Izzie about this. She thinks if I’m still scared I should take self-defense classes.
“That’s a good idea. But I really don’t want to go alone.” I told her.
“Well you won’t have to because I’m going with you.” Izzie really Is the greatest friend a girl could have.
“Going where?” Tess and Maria walk into the room. I smile at Izzie. I know she’s wondering if she can mention it. I’ve come to realize that you can’t hide anything from these two. You wanna know why? Well it’s simple, because when they want to know something they can be mental terrorists. I’m serious. When Kyle had been planning to take Tess out for a surprise he enlisted me as an accomplice. Well Tess figured I knew something and she jedi-mind tricked me. That girl is better then Yoda.
“Isabel and I are going to take self defense lessons.” I try and make it sound as if I don’t really care about it one way or the other.
“Not without us you’re not.” Maria and Tess exclaimed.
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So here we are, all ready to take some names and kick some ass. We decided to do a private lesson so we didn’t have to be around people we didn’t know. Our teacher walks in and Tess and I start to laugh. He is a mix between The Rock and Vin Diesel, just what you would expect for a self defense coach.
“Ladies can we get started now.” He said. We all shut up and began to listen.
“The key to not being a victim is not acting like one. If you think you are weak then you are weak. You become the perfect target” He points at me and I go up to join him. “You’re the one that was attacked weren’t you?” I nod and I wonder how he knew.
“Ok ready, hit me.” I hit him as hard as I can. “You hit like a little weak defenseless girl.” He begins to push me and I feel the same fear I had that night creep up on me. I vaguely here him tell the other to get out. He pushes me against the wall but this time I don’t act like a worthless baby. I kick and break myself from his grip.
“Good now picture everything that’s scared you and hurt you and harness that fear. You control it, don’t let control you. Fear’s good it keeps you on your toes. It separates the weak from the strong.”
This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise to depart just promise one thing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I’m in that dark alley and I’m pushed against the wall. I won’t be weak I won’t be hurt or scared anymore. I punch him across the face.
This is what I brought you this you can keep,
This is what I brought you may forget me.
I promise you my heart just promise to sing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I’m back home and all my friends are treating me like I’m in quarantine. I feel myself begin to lose control and I knee him, and use my entire self to bring him down.I won’t be a victim. I can’t be a victim.
This is what I thought,
I thought you need me,
This is what I thought so think me naïve,
I promise you a heart you'd promise to keep,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.
I come back down and I’m on the floor crying. The instructor is bruised and bloody, and I’m not sure if I did that.
“Well I wouldn’t want to be in an alley with you.” He jokes. I realize that if I could beat a marine up I can handle anything. Just like that my fear disappears.