
CHAPTER 20
“Please, sit here in front of the mirror. That way you can see what I'll do and you don't have to worry.” says Granma
Max sits down and sees Granma in the mirror behind him. Liz is sitting on Granma's bed biting her lip in anticipation.
“Lizzie, it will be fine” says Granma. Lizzie had told her all about her talk with Max this morning. She agreed with Liz that it could be the connection between Max and Liz or it could be the baby that is reaching out to it's father. She puts her hand over Max head “Max, look in to my eyes and relax. Try not to think about anything” She looks at Max in the mirror. Max looks straight in Granmas eyes and suddenly he can see her hand start to glow. She moves her hand slowly over his head. From his front to the back of his head. When she comes to the back she stops and he can see her eyes open wide and she looks shocked. Then she collects herself and looks at Max again. “You are healthy” she says “I can't find anything wrong with you”
“Why did you stop when you came to the back of my head” asks Max
“Oh, I'm sorry. When I scan someone or when Liz heals we have to make a connection with the person and sometimes I can see some memories from the persons life. That's what happened. I saw you as a little boy and you were so cute” she says.
“Oh, I hope it was nothing embarrassing” says Max and looks between Granma and Liz. He points out the door. “I'll go see what they are up to. You coming?” he asks Liz
“I just need to ask Granma a thing about the baby. I will be out soon” says Liz
Max walks out and thinks. They are lying to me. But why? Why does they feel that they have to lie to me?
Liz looks at Granma “I was right. Wasn't I?”
“Yes honey bear. This is strong, really strong.”
“What do you mean?”
“He said that he always feels like a little flutter? And that is has been stronger the last couple of days?”
Liz nods her head
“I could feel a connection between you two. That is the constant flutter that he's feeling. My guess is that it wasn't just you that had the feelings when you made this baby.” she pats on Liz round belly “The stronger flutter is this little fellow reaching out to it's father. You can't do anything about this. It's just there and it will never go away. You have to accept that”
Liz sighs “I suspected something like this. I know how it feels inside me. But I thought that he didn't felt the same. And then I found out about this from him.... Granma! What should I do?”
“I can't answer that honey. Only you have the answer to that. You already know what I think about this whole mess but it's up to you. You have to make up your mind by yourself on this topic. What I can say is that whichever way you take, it will be hurdles but don't give up. Never give up”
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“I'm gonna miss you so much” cries Liz and hugs her friends.
“We will miss you too but we will be here soon again. You know that” says Alex. “As soon as we can get a full weekend off we will be here”
“And I will be here in four weeks” says Michael “I have already checked my schedule and I can leave Wednesday and don't have to be back until Sunday. Sound good?”
“Sure does” says Liz
“Maybe I will have to lend a wheelbarrow to move you outside the house by then” jokes Michael and move quickly out of Liz's arm reach.
She smiles at him “I know. I will be large as a house then with about 6 weeks left before this fellow shows” she strokes her stomach with a soft smile on her lips.
Max is watching her and he thinks that she is glowing. She looks much better then when we came here. She has some color on her cheeks and that smile could melt ice. I love her like crazy... He moves up to Liz and embrace her hard. Then he laughs and looks down between them to her stomach. Liz does the same. “It has never done that before” she says with a small laugh “I mean I have felt the baby but never this hard” She looks up to Max and sees love in his eyes.
“What happened” asks Alex
“The baby kicked me” says Max with a smile “Must not like that I hugged the mother-to-be”
“Come on. I'm the uncle. Kick me” says Alex and hugs Liz hard one more time. He pulls back and looks down “Nothing”
Liz laughs at his antics and shakes her head. She makes another round to hug them all. “Drive safely Max, Isabel and Michael” and then she turns to Isabel “If you don't want to drive all the way let Alex do it”
When she reach Max again she whispers “You can call me anytime you have a question if you still won't talk to Michael”. She hugs him again and once again the baby kicks hard. Max looks down with wonder in his eyes, he puts his hand om her stomach and feels another kick. “It truly is a little person in there. Wow” He shakes his head and waves goodbye to Granma and they are off.
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Six weeks later
Michael bangs on Max's door. “Come on. Open up. I know that you're in there” The door opens and Michael takes one look at Max. “Fuck you look like shit. Take a shower, I'll order pizza and then we can talk” He walks in to Max apartment and gets a shock. There are bear-cans everywhere. What the hell is he doing, he asks himself. He takes a bag and cleans up and wait for Max to be finished in the shower.
Max walk out of the bathroom, feels the smell of the pizza and groans.
“Here take a slice. You can't live on bear you know” says Michael
Max moans and pulls out some Advil and plops down on the sofa. He waves his hand slowly “Get that away from me. One bite and it will come back up right away”
“Ah, hangover” smirks Michael “But I won't feel sorry for you. Now I have had the whole Evans family calling me worrying about you. Why can't you pick up and answer your phone?” He looks for Max cell and finds it under the table “Dead. What the fuck have you been doing? I know that you haven't been to seminars the last week and I was worried that you was sick or something. And now I find out that you have been drinking like crazy. This isn't you! Talk to me and talk now before I get pissed! And you know I have special powers” he waves his fingers in the air.
Max slumps back and moans at the move “Why do you care? You won't talk about it and answer my questions. I'll bet you too would lie to me just like Liz is doing”
“Wait. What won't I talk about and what is Liz lying about?”
“Whenever I ask you something about your heritage you always says you won't talk about it and when you do answer it's always some half truths always these lies never truths. And I have this fluttering inside me that is slowly driving me crazy since I don't know what it mean. I asked Liz and Granma about it last time I was there and I just know that they lied to me. But why? Could you tell me that? Please?” Max is almost shouting now
Michael looks at him. Oh shit, he thinks. This is driving him crazy, why can't Liz talk to him. He sighs and looks over to Max who has his eyes closed “You still look like something the cat threw up”
“Har-har” smiles Max
“I don't know if and why Liz is lying to you. She won't tell me everything even if you thinks so. Why do you think Maria is so pissed at her? Liz has talked to Kyle and that's the only one. Maria nags her all the time about it but so far Liz hasn't told her shit. Why should she tell me? I can only give you some advice. One is that you call her and talk to her. Ask her why she is lying if that is what you feel. Maybe she will answer or maybe you will get the same treatment like the rest of us. I don't know. The other is that I will talk to you about it. It's kind of hard for me since I have always hid that part of me”
“But you don't have to do that anymore around me”
“I know but it's not an easy thing to do. But I will try more. Okey?”
Max nods. He knows that's all Michael can do and he can't demand him to do more.
“And the third and last advice is STOP drinking!” Max whimper when Michael yells “Drinking won't solve shit and you know that so what the fuck are you doing this for?”
“When I'm drunk I can't feel that flutter and I can get some rest from it”
“Well, maybe you should stop numb it and start to listen to it. Why don't you try to find out where this feeling is coming from? It's not like everyone goes around with flutter inside them” smiles Michael. “Get some sleep and then you call Liz and talk to her. Call me after” He grabs his pizza and walk up to the third floor where his apartment is.
Max takes Michael's advice and calls Liz.
“Hello”
“Hi, Liz. It's Max”
“I know” she whispers
“Oh, why are you whispering”
“I don't feel so well. I was resting”
“Oh, I can call another time”
“No, it will be fine. I guess you have a question since you are calling. Still not talking to Michael about it?”
“Well, we have talked some when he was over here yelling at me”
“Why would he do that?”
“Well, I haven't been myself this past week and I guess he got tired of it”
“What do you mean?”
“You know the fluttering feeling I told you about? It has been stronger this past weeks and I found a way to numb it”
“Max! What did you do?”
“I drank some bears with some guys here and I found out that it numbed that feeling so I drank some more. And today Michael showed up and yelled at me”
Liz sighed “Okey, you got drunk, not a smart move, but why would he yell at you?”
“It's been a week and I didn't notice” whispers Max
“What? Max! No... you can't do that. Promise me you won't do that again”
“Maybe... If you can tell me the truth and be honest with me in your answer to my three questions”
“Oh... Max it depends. I have only talked to Kyle. You know that.”
“Yes, but I thought that maybe, after what we shared last summer. I thought it meant something to you”
“It did” whispers Liz “more than you know”
“So please, be honest with me... Is your soul mate an alien or hybrid?”
Liz is silent
“Liz. Are you there”
“Yes, but I can't answer that question. All I can say is that race isn't whats important here”
“I guess that will do. Next... How long is an pregnancy for hybrids? I know that your doctors doesn't know exactly but what do they think?”
“About 7 months” Liz says without thinking
“Last question. Do you know what this feeling inside me means?”
“I'm sorry but the only answer I can give you is maybe. Sometimes we hybrids knows stuff about others but it's not up to us to tell you about them. It's up to you to find them out. If we tell you everything we will take away your free will and I won't do that to anyone. Can you understand that?” cries Liz
“Please Liz, don't cry. I didn't mean to upset you again. It's just that this is driving me crazy. I can't understand what's happening to me” Now Max was crying too “I know that you are waiting for someone but I just have to tell you this. I love you Liz. I think I always have. But I won't stand in the way of your happiness. Bye” and Max hangs up the phone before he breaks down completely.
This fear has me chilled down to the bone
And I have been haunted by these things I still have left to say
I’m weary of fighting this alone
So tired of holding on to strings much better left to fray
And I said
Hear me now here and now I’m calling
Memories wear me down
And this seems so complicated
When all I want is just the truth
Max curls up on his bed and cries hard. He thinks about what she said and he still has that feeling of lying inside him. How can I let her go? How can I live and see her with someone else?
I’m wilted and faded after all
Too strung out and burnt out to be half the man that I could be
I’ll never belong inside your world
So black out the sun and leave me to play out the same old tragedy
And I said
Hear me now here and now I’m calling
Memories wear me out
And this seems too complicated
When all I want is just the truth
Why can't I be enough for her? Who am I kidding. What have I to offer her? She needs someone who can be king not someone who's gonna be a lawyer. But I need her. I know I need her for everything to feel right.
You’re my savior after all
Use your flame to guide me home
And then lay your hand on me
And I said
Hear me now here and now I’m calling
Memories wear me down
And this seems so complicated
When all I want is just the truth
Hear me now here and now I’m calling
Memories wear me out
And this seems too complicated
When all I want is a part of you
(Here and Now by Seether)
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